I’m a huge advocate for chasing your dreams. I truly feel that if we didn’t, we would all live with a constant feeling of regret and wondering “What if?”
And yet, when it comes to my own dreams, I find myself holding back. For what? Perhaps fear of failure. Perhaps a fear of inadequacy, a fear of not being good enough. Perhaps I hold myself back just from fear in general.
I can apply this to many situations through the years. From weight-loss and fitness, to chances I didn’t take, to my own writing. I’ve held back.
So, what’s causing this post?
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I’ve been thinking a lot about that manuscript sitting in a folder in the depths of my external hard drive. Every year, for the last 8 years, I have vowed to finish it. And every year, it has continued to sit and stay hidden from everyone’s eyes, but mine.
From time to time, I open it and read a quick piece of it, hoping to find that burst of creativity that birthed the idea to begin with. And it does, and I write a little bit more. Hit save. And repeat over the course of the year.
I’ve always had a dream to publish it, from the first day I began writing it in 2007. I’ve had friends look at it; copy edit it; make suggestions; critique it. I’ve rewritten sections; rewritten them again; and hit delete, before completely rewriting again.
Since it was first written 8 years ago, things have changed. I can’t count how many times I’ve had to change details and update what was there to fit with the times. When I first began writing this, iPhones weren’t a thing yet; nor was Instagram or Snapchat.
And there it still sits, beckoning to me every now and then to come out of hiding. The motivation is there. The drive is there. The encouragement is there. The fear is holding me back.
But I feel like I’m finally ready to bring it into the world. I owe it that. I owe it to myself. It’s been a labor of love, and it continues to be. I’m not setting a deadline. I want the timing to be right. But instead of holding back, I’m going to try.
What’s the worst that can happen? It fails? At least I’ll have tried. And I wouldn’t have let the fear of failure keep me from trying.
Step back, fear. It’s time to let this dream have a chance at becoming reality.
“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve; the fear of failure.” – Paulo Coehlo, The Alchemist